Guys, it's been a long holiday. And I feel like i didnt use the precious time properly... Sad ya know. I'm not productive at all. Okay here i wanna share with you guys about me myself being an inferior girl... This below post, i have posted it in my status on facebook.


"Wait, what..? Why are you crying?"

"Listen carefully dear. I really. Really want to voice out my opinion for a long time ago. But I was afraid. Too terrified and anxious if you would laugh at me, mocking me, or probably talking bad about myself behind me.

And now, I do voice out my idea and opinion. Unfortunately, you keep laughing at my ideas. I am upset. Too sad because it seems like you guys belittle me. The most thing that I was scared, now it happens to me."

P/s - I dont know. This inferiority complex really really distracting. Feeling of i-am-not-belong-here keep haunting. But, I will always remember a piece of advice from my seniors that "Do not afraid of doing wrong" because To live a creative life, we must loose our fear of being wrong.

#selangkahmengubahdunia ?
#hidupbiarberjasa ?


That's what I felt and feel right now. Something's on my mind that I can refute or resist it. What is it? What is the cause of my inferiority complex? Jelousy? Envious? Hatred? Tiredness? :'(

Nota Pasca Forum Current Issues on Malaysian Economy

Tarikh: 20/10/15
Masa: 8-10.30pm
Tempat:Econs Lt 2 UIAM.

"Sekarang martabat negara negara, tampak lebih sunyi sepi, sebab rusak pelaksanaan peraturannya, karena tanpa teladan, orang meninggalkan kesopanan, para cendekiawan dan para ahli terbawa, hanyut ikut terus dalam jaman bimbang, bagaikan hilang tanda-tanda kehidupannya, kesengsaraan dunia kerana tergenang berbagai halangan".

Inilah pesan pujangga Jawa, Ranggawarsita(1802-1874) apabila berhadapan dengan Zaman Edan(gila). Kewaspadaan terhadap kebejatan hidup yang semakin tidak menentu kehadirannya. Perkaitan yang cuba saya sampaikan adalah situasi ekonomi dan politik negara yang kian tenat.

Pembentang pertama adalah Wan Ahmad Fahysal. Beliau menekankan peri pentingnya keterikatan Malaysia berdasarkan The Post-World War 2 World System dan juga kebergantungan Malaysia dengan US Dollar. Terdapat 4 grup negara dari kaca mata ekonomi iaitu:
1)Core of Core
2)Periphery of Core
3)Core of Periphery
4)Periphery of Periphery.

Selain itu, pembentang kedua ialah Tuan Ameer Ali. Beliau berkata bahawa masalah yang kita hadapi bukan berpunca daripada sekarang tetapi hasil tindakan yang berkesinambungan. Fakta paling menarik yang dikongsi adalah pengurusan ekonomi terbaik ada didalam Surah Yusuf. Tambahan pula, beliau mengupas mengenai 4 isu utama ekonomi negara sekarang iaitu:
1)federal government debt level.
2)Inflation on property prices.
3)Very low crude oil prices.
4)Weakening Ringgit.

Pembentang ketiga pula ialah Dr. Edmund Terence Gomez. Seruan beliau ialah anda perlu belajar sejarah jika ingin tahu politik dan ekonomi masa kini. Beliau menceritakan kronologi politik wang yang bermula pada tahun 1981 ketika perseteruan antara Ku Li vs Musa Hitam untuk jawatan Timbalan Presiden UMNO. Penyakit politik wang merebak dengan dahsyat juga dalam peristiwa lain seperti UMNO A vs UMNO B, Team Wawasan Anwar Ibrahim 1993, Reformasi 1998, PRU 2004 zaman Pak Lah hingga kini 2015 reshuffle cabinet dan beberapa lembaga2 dan institusi. Beliau berkata, BN dan PR keduanya main politik wang.

Konklusi saya ialah forum ini menunjukkan bahawa tanpa ahli politik juga sebenarnya kita boleh berwacana dengan ilmuwan/akademia yang pakar dalam bidangnya. Perlu diingatkan bahawa agenda wacana adalah to feed the purpose iaitu memberi pencerahan dan percambahan idea/ilmu. Jika ini tidak dicapai meskipun wacana itu popular maka ia adalah satu kegagalan. Fokus pada kerja kita wahai anak muda. Persiapkan dirimu !

"Balik rumah,buat kumpulan, buat bacaan dan kajian serta cari apa perubahan yang ingin kita lakukan".
-Dr. Edmund Gomez-

Bismillahirrohamnirrahim

It's been a long day that I don't listen to one of the songs from The Chemical Romance; Welcome To The Black Parade. Hehe. It was published during my childhood but now I am a big big girl in a big big world. *ehh
Haha I am sweet 18 but my birthday hasn't come yet so I am considered 17..? Setuju? Haha yelah. Up to you guys la.

This song is quite something. Idk what is it. But it seems like whispering me to listen more and more to the song. Haha donno. Nostalgic maybe? The rythm? The melody? The lyrics? I hv no idea. But for sure is, I will not like a music FOREVER. I am a human being that is hard to be loyal. Kehkehkeh. I hv downloaded many songs in my phone. I just listen to them for a while and then I will get bored to them.

Hahaha then I will stop my routine and continue it back. Songs are not good ya know. I mean, western song, korean..and so on. I bet you know what kind of song. Try this instead; zikir, nasyid, instrumental music or songs that give you motivation and good spirit. Good for your health!

"Welcome to The Black Parade"

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

God, today is 19th october! Haha Malaysia Day had passed. Hehe. But I just wanna share my poem about Malaysia. Hehe. My first published poem. I know it is not too artsy or dramatic or beautiful. Hey I am just a beginner. Soo guys I posted on Instagram. Just follow my ig ; fara_benz
Ehehehe peace!


Malaysia...
Orang kata aman negaranya
Orang kata harmoni bangsanya
Pelbagai kaum dan bangsa
Semua merata 

Tapi kini 
Seperti tidak lagi
Baik perempuan baik lelaki
Seolah tiada harga diri
Mana pergi ikrar setia janji?
Rukun negara di sekolah rendah mana pergi?
Kebejatan apa tak perlu aku katakan di sini
Kerana kalian sudah pun mengetahui

Bangkitlah semua
Kami perlukan syabab yang luar biasa
Yang hammasah
Yang basah dengan tarbiyah
Yang merasai kemanisan ukhuwwah
Yang sentiasa cakna akan hal negara

Jangan lupa wahai bangsa
Kita adalah akar bagi pemimpin negara
Tanpa kita, siapalah ketua?

Maka, caknalah akan negara
Manusia berambut putih pasti akan setia mendengar
Setiap keluhan dan suara kita 
Tidak akan rugi walau sebesar zarah
Yakinlah!

Hari Malaysia kian tiba
Apa yang kalian harapkan
Usahalah untuk hasilnya

Kalian tahu apa yang terbaik untuk pertiwi
Kerana kalian lebih mengetahui
Merasai
Dan memahami

Salam maju jaya buat pertiwi!

Masya Allah i don't know la. It's kinda ugly for a reading material. Haha forgive me! InsyaAllah will improve myself in writing skills. Actually, I want to make a poetry about 'Airport'. But it has never been written or 'touched' by me coz I was too lazy with stuffs and so on blablabla. Maybe after this? Oh no no no. I'm sleepy.

See? I'm good at procrastinating! :(

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Hey guys, I hv just finished my final exam for this sem. Well, this is my first time being in the examination that was held by university. It was like other examinations that I hv sit before. Just a bit different la. Because I was sitting in a small room. Sometimes, big room. Yeahh, not specific la the venues. But that not matters. Not a big deal either. O yeah, the attire too. We hv that freedom to wear anything as long as it is 'tutup aurat'. Hmm. One more thing, just don't forget to bring along matric card and examination slip. Or else, you may not be sitting the examination that day. Such a relief I passed! Hehe

What am I nagging haaaa.

Okay, get to the story. For this sem, I took 3 subjects. They were English (LEM0520), Islam and Other Religion (RKA0413), and Business Study (QSA0294). Hehe just three. So you know that I was really really relaxed this sem. Alhamdulillah I think I did quite well in my final. I don't know. I just did.. Well, many thanks to my father, mother, families and friends for praying for me. It was a great gift from Allah to having some ppl that would pray for your best. Praise be to Him.

I do not put the highest hope for this final. Yeah, I know that I played a lot during this sem as I know I just had 3 subjects only. Haha well , human being always like this kan. But it was in the past. The 'regret' feeling is there, inside of me. Well I think most of students behave like this. For most of the time. Why haa? Idk laa. I hope I won't become like them. I just want to be succeed in my life, my job, my career and my business in hereafter as well. IN SHA ALLAH AAMIIIN :)

Myself said that "okay, since this is my first time being university student, I want to be better after this. I really want to. I hope Allah will help and guide me along the journey bcs I know it is not so easy. That's why I need strength from The Strength Giver (Allah). I don't want wasting my time to such unnecessary things. I want to serve for my country, the ummah. Insya Allah. I want to do it with my friends. I dont care where they are from. Bcs I know Allah had destined me to be with some ppl around me that will support and let me down. They both important. They give me strength, experiences and knowledge. Idk how to explain more but..yeah.. haha. One more, I want to expose myself to the society by becoming the volunteer or joining activities that will be held. Theres a lot of things that I want to do. Whatever it is, may Allah always bless me , family , friends and you guys who read this post. Insya Allah"

Till then, guys. Bye! Hope you have some resolutions for this new Islamic year. Make sure that they are logic, reasonable suit with your effort okay! Salam Maal Hijrah :)